Sunday Sparkle

Have you guys seen La La Land? I wouldn’t exactly call it my favorite movie (I prefer happy endings), but the story’s so good that I can’t stop thinking about it! Disclaimer: If you don’t want spoilers, stop reading!

The whole Sebastian/Ryan Gosling and Mia/Emma Stone romance is what keeps the story nice and juicy, but if you look deeper, I’d say the plot is really more about the triumphs and failures that come with following your passion. What I found interesting is how the lead characters approached what they’re passionate about. Sebastian had the confidence and ego of a “serious” musician—and he refused to compromise without a fight. Why? Probably because he knows his art, he’s excellent at what he does, and he knows it. As for Mia, she flounders. She visibly struggles with the highs, lows, and insecurities that come with being an aspiring actress.

So the big question I want to ask you is this: Which character do you find more admirable? Is it the guy who’s unapologetically great at what he does and doesn’t compromise his art? Or the girl who chooses to lay her heart on the line with each audition? For me, it’s Mia’s continuous vulnerability that impressed me. I may not be an aspiring actress, but I know what it feels like to keep putting yourself out there over and over again. Like her, I’ve been hurt, rejected, and have wondered if I’m good enough. Like her, there were times when I would have to give up on something (or someone). And like her, despite the many heartbreaks, I still continue to hope. In myself. In someone else. In just winning at life.

I guess I’ve been thinking about this because I also feel like the foolish dreamer right now. And ironically, it’s because I’ve begun writing again after four months. FOUR MONTHS. It just hit me that that’s the longest I’ve ever gone without writing anything in over 10 years. And it’s not just about the fact that my writing skills are a tad rusty. It’s also because I feel different and I’m getting to know myself (and my voice) as a writer again. Admitting that to myself (and to you!) takes a lot of raw vulnerability, but I also know that it is from this very place where I can find my courage and confidence again. And for the times when I need a little more inspo, I always turn to this…

Is there anything you’re learning (or re-learning) this year? Any passion projects or dreams that you’re afraid of taking on? Tell me all about it in the comments and help me feel like I’m not alone in this! ♥